What is the point of working until you die or retire. Why do so many have to die because they over worked themselves or killed themselves. Life should be a feeling of free but it feels like were working slaves still. This is a weird world we live in but it will never be a free world. They should stop calling places free because they are not. You work and you try to survive. That is what life is. Trust me, I don’t know where this sad energy is coming from either but it’s here and it isn’t leaving.
Who says you can’t leave. Why do you have to stay put? Money? Money isn’t everything but you need it for today’s society. I want to leave so damn bad right now and just go somewhere. Not to a restaurant or a shopping place but somewhere peaceful. Not a local hiking trail or water front but somewhere that is hidden and unknown to others. I want to go alone and just scream out loud. Screaming feels so good and I would love to just get it out. Silent screaming isn’t doing it for me because you can’t be loud. I want to release everyone problems that I am holding in my head and also my own. I hate having them because my head hurts.
If I didn’t have to work, I would honestly live in nature where there are so many trees. I like the quietness and having no one around so it would be perfect. I sound depressing but I do wanna achieve something. Helping people and doing interesting things in my life. I want to do so much that I almost think it’s not possible to do everything. I am majoring in Biology Pre-Med to become a doctor but I also wanna study bacteria and journalism. I also wanna focus on feminism and women rights. There is just so much I wanna do but it takes so long. Why do it have to take so long? Why can’t I just be free to do what I want for free. It’s crazy when you start to think like that.