Stress is already a killer itself but school makes it so much worse. My semesters have been tough before but this one hits differently. Maybe it’s because a lot of the work is online but I am more stressed than ever. I sleep late and wake up later. College ruins you sleep schedule but I am pretty sure everyone knows that. It’s like, I have a dream I am reaching for but this big gap is killing me mentally. I made the decision to do no work at all today because I need a break. This semester is like the year 2020, a mess. It’s all over the place and I don’t know how to fix it without causing more stress. It’s tiring.
My birthday is around the corner and I barely wanna go outside because of everything. I kind of don’t care for a birthday this year because it feels different. I will be hiking to release some stress because nature does that. If you ever get really stressed and tired then take a walk and clear your mind. The teachers aren’t making anything better because of how much they give out. For example, I have this physics teacher who just adds so much work and make it due at 7:00am in the morning online. I was finishing an assignment yesterday and fell asleep around 4am. Almost all my teachers are like that and I don’t understand because they know how stressful college is. By the way, that physics class is so hard and he makes it like its a “AP” class. It’s physics 1.
Since I have these tough classes, it’s also hard for me to find a job. I also didn’t get a refund because their tuition is so much that it covered only that with a subsidized loan. With that reason, I had to buy books and two codes. That total was around $320 of my own money which is even worse because I have to buy food. I honestly don’t know how I am still making it here. Reasons like all of those is why I have to move off this campus. It’s too expensive and too stressful. I have officially reached the top of the stress chart and about to go off on people. Times like this is when you definitely need to talk to someone. Like friends or family because stress is a disease.