It’s too much. There is no other way to put it. I can make myself feel happy but I’m not really happy because there is too much going on around me. I’m talking about life right now. While me and everyone else is trying get back to school and work, we still have a virus with people dying. How can you try to stay positive after hearing that? While they tell us about a second wave coming, we have to try to get back to normal while being very careful. There are still some idiots who don’t listen and we get even more cases. It’s too much to process at once. Then at that people are now protesting because racism just won’t go away. Innocent people being killed because of hate and it’s disgusting things. This is not the time to be hateful because everyone is trying to survive. Cops still not understanding their roles and taking it too far. We might as well not have any cops. I am pretty sure there would be less crimes.
It’s too much to think about voting at a time like this. I am so sick of hearing about this dumbass election with these dumbass people that I didn’t vote for. There is nothing changing except my attitude toward this country. While this is going on, I am still in big loans trying to figure out how to pay for school as is everyone else. They didn’t make anything easier. Colleges, schools, the government and this country are loan sharks. That’s all too it. I wish I can just leave this country. Times like this makes you wonder who to believe in at this point. Maybe god is also saying that we are doing too much because I feel like this is the second wave.
There are so many negatives right now that I can’t really think of any positives. I want to say that a positive is me being alive and virus free but I don’t have the right to say that when so many people died and is still suffering from it. Every time I try to be grateful, someone else dies. It’s literally so sad for me because it hurts even if you don’t know the people and I can’t stop myself from watching it. I’m still amazed and will forever be amazed at how fast this spreaded. Makes you think huh? How did we get so far down that negative is the new positive.